the definition of a retard.

re-tard [ri-tahrd]
–verb (used with object)
1. to make slow; delay the development or progress of (an action, process, etc.); hinder or impede.
–verb (used without object)
2. to be delayed.
–noun
3. a slowing down, diminution, or hindrance, as in a machine.
4. slang: disparaging.
a. a mentally retarded person.
b. a person who is stupid, obtuse, or ineffective in some way: a hopeless social retard.
c. bec.

i just got what i wanted and im devestated.
i am the definition of retarded.

heres me and brads conversation.
bec says: ohhh did nic have a talk to you about the staff party?
Bradley.... says: nopee y's that?
bec says: oh cause sarian thought you did and i got real angry cause i hadnt been talked to
Bradley.... says: relli? he asked me on fri n i told him nope
bec says: ohh thats weird
Bradley.... says: haha it is wen did he ask u?
bec says: saturday
Bradley.... says: ohk haha he is a weird one y wld u get angry at that?
bec says: cause i hated how when they found out we were kind of together last year you got like 4 talks and i didnt get any its rude to dump it all on you
Bradley.... says: oooooooooh haha is wat happens
bec says: mmmm well it shouldnt!! im old enough to make my own decisions and should be accounted for them!!! rahhhhhh!!!!
Bradley.... says: haha is shit now but cause they think sumthin is goin on wen its not


so nothings going on. which is what i need. which is what i want.
and yet im on the verge of crying.
as i said; i define retarded.