Friday, October 30, 2009

thursday chill sesh

i hung out with ron ron tonight for the second time in two weeks. i hope this becomes a regular thing :)
he brought riesses present (a flask with "to the biggest cunt i know..." engraved on it. omg you should have seen ron ron telling the guy what he wanted he was so embarrassed; it was adorable) and i brought naomis (mosaiced mirror thing). many funny things happened as you would expect if you had ever met ron ron. the highlights:
- ron ron convincing tom that he had brought riess the mirror for his birthday. tom "i dont understand"
- rhysiepoo
- going to kawana to find a pirate eye patch
- ron ron giving me a tour of kawana shopping world because i had never been there
- me realising at the end of the tour that i had actually been there
- going to paulys house to watch burn notice
- realising that burn notice wanst on for another two hours
- creeping out the cold rock staff
- watching the cold rock staff clean up around us
- ron ron getting rid of the rubbish in his car then moving to a car park three spaces away so that noone would know that it was his
- nick driving me home in his skyline <3

on another note my wardrobe doors are now sliders. on the downside the mirror is in the wrong place. i can see myself everywhere. i hate it.
love xx

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

maybe this time

so today me and brad went to the beach. it wasnt amazing, it wasnt exciting, it wasnt nerve-wracking. in fact it was pretty ordinary. average. even awkward at some points.
in the least cliched way possible, i have a feeling the magic has gone.
the wierd thing is that im okay with it. maybe i might finally be accepting that we wont work.
that would be nice.
not going to hold my breath though. we both know how many times ive said im over him.
but maybe this time ill win :)

Tuesday, October 27, 2009


on saturday i worked in the morning before going to help sister sarah move house. omg her new house is insane. i love it. its just amazing. i cant even explain it. i will take photos. it was much fun helping them move :) when we were going through sister sarahs stuff deciding whether it was important or not she found her life time supply of condoms ron ron, riess and tom brought her for her 16th birthday. and she gave them to me :) is it sad that im excited about trying them out?
jennys 19th was on saturday night. it was pretty good :) some people complained that it was boring but i think i was too drunk to notice. ive pretty much decided the best way to get boys respect is to do shots; respect earnt. pretty much as soon as i saw tom he kissed me. it was kind of nice but at the same time i hate how it kind of makes me "his" for the night or whatever. like i thought we were going to get together at some point i just wish it hadnt been so early. this didnt stop me from shamelessly flirting with a boy named grant though :) and from him getting my number :) normally this would be a win but i when i gave it to him he called my phone so that we had each others numbers but my phone had no missed calls so either i gave him the wrong number by accident or my phones just being special. oh wells it was still a confidence booster :) haha and riess was doing shots through his eyes cause it makes you drunk quickest. soon after that he drank bleach and shotted lemon juice through his eye so id have to say it probably works pretty well. me and nick had good good chats. im pretty sure they lasted at least an hour. and i have almost no idea what we talked about :) and mark said me and sarah jean were his friends :) and pauly almost faught tyrone which was scary. and i met sarah jeans blonde nick. omg. just omg. froth. so jealous. and i met jennys family and i have to say they are the most attractive family i have ever seen. me and tom had private time for a bit then came out and realised that everyone had been kicked out. then we realised sarah jean, riess and ron ron had left so we went find them and then saw that sarah jean had drove :/ i wasnt happy with it but the boys werent going to walk home. but i did make her drive at 40 km/hr which is amazingly slow for sarah. when we got back to my house we chilled in my room. im pretty sure tom tore up one of the posters nutter made me :) riess kept on telling ron ron that me, tom, riess and sarah jean were going to have a foursome and after a while he got sick of it and went to bed. then i convinced riess and sarah jean to go another room and me and tom got into it :) and i used one of my new condoms :) i feel so bad for tom i was way to drunk i would have been horrible to have sex with. im about 50% positive that i passed out during it at some point. which is not helped by a conversation me and tom just had. tom "do you know what be funny bec if a guy passed out during sex" im not sure if that was just a really weird coincidence or if he was hinting it :S it was good sex though :) and i bled which scares me a little but it was still good :)
on sunday morning sarah jean came in and i found out that her and riess had sex!!!!! yay!!! we all hung out for a bit then sarah jean drove the boys back to their cars and i went to sleep.
today i had school then went to work for stocktake. grace almost went to school today, well she got into her uniform anyway. mum spent both the car ride to school and to work abusing me. joy. its okay though cause when i got to school i had sarah jean and when i got to work i had everyone. stocktake was good, we got out an hour early which is pretty amazing. and me and brad talked a bit :) and sarian drove me home :) and nic visited :) it was just good :)
me and nick had really good chats before. i hate how he hates himself so much. hes one of the most wonderful people ive ever met. hes so caring for his friends and he always gives people the time of day. he makes me a better person. i just wish he could see it. i wanted to tell him about riess and sarah jean so badly cause hes already so cut up about them hooking up. but apart from the fact that i would be betraying sarah jean i dont know how he would react to the news but i doubt it would be good. and i wouldnt want to hurt him. i just dont know if im doing the right thing. he told me some interesting stuff on tom. apparently riess was stirring tom on saturday night as riess does. drunken me made a comment about grant (this is before we exchanged numbers) and of course riess took this as i choose grant over tom and gave tom shit for it. saying things like any guy could take toms girl away and stuff. i feel so bad for tom. is it extra bad of me to say that while i wouldnt have minded hooking up with grant i would have gone home with tom? and if something comes from meeting grant so be it. me and tom arent dating so im allowed to do what i like. and im not going to defend myself either.
so thats the update.

Saturday, October 24, 2009


me, the sarahs, nick and tom went to see couples retreat tonight. its pretty average. it was so good chilling with the boys and the sarahs though :) and we were paying out tom for his drunken calls from last night :)
im pretty excited for jennys. ive missed sex.
ohh and nick and sarah have been having sex! like not that often only three times in like three months but still! i cant believe i didnt pick up on it!
thats all xx

Friday, October 23, 2009


sorry for my lack of blogging lately. a lot of shits been going on so i havent really been motivated to do anything.
so lets play catch up.

im back at school for the last term ever :) so im pretty excited. as of today i have 17 school days left and 29 days in total left. cannot wait to be out there in the big bad world :) and schools become so much more chill now cause we only have one piece of assessment for each subject. so compared to last term when it was 10 pieces of assessment in 8 weeks its now 5 pieces of assessment in 7 weeks :)
things at work have been really bad. our shops been franchised so nics out of a job and brad and sarian have left cause they get most of their hours from the other shops. so i have a new boss taryn who i hate out of principle. and im on probation again. and im probably going to quit on christmas eve cause taryn probably wont let me go to woodford like jenny would have. and i wont have my dream team on sundays anymore cause sasha and jenny dont have set days off anymore. basically everything is terrible at work. but on the upside matts one of my favourites. hes actually really cool. we had the work party last weekend and it was really sad. and it was at jennys house which is just amazing. ill take photos next time. and her daughter josie and her partner played and they are great.
i dont think ill ever talk to nutter ever again. theres been more added to the fingers and jake saga but i dont really feel like going through it. whatsmore she called me fat and said that i was pathetic for getting with tom. but i dont see how im pathetic for getting with tom since she dated him and all. so yeah whatevs.
ive been at the beach so much lately its great. im so mega tanned. ohh and sarah jean got a tattoo!! its of a dove and its on the right part of her back. its mega pretty and im mega jealous. lots of people in my grade have got tattoos in like the last week actually. naomi, little aimee, courtney, steph pringle etc.
filming has begun for the year 12 graduation video. how exciting :) and ive brought my formal ticket :) ive got my formal dress, shoes, makeup, nails, underware (nanna pants) and car all set up just gotta get hair, bag and jewellery now :)
heaps of people have been suspended in the last week. i think its so dumb cause its like the last term of year 12. anyways it was callum, corey, syd and others for cheating on the geography test, sam and brenton for being caught smoking pot and callum again for making a joke about bombs on the schools answering machine. so im not sure if they can come to formal which is sad :(
i also have almost all my money saved for schoolies :)
the boy side of things has been interesting of late. me and josh hooked up during the holidays and he liked me so we were going to meet up to see how things went but i decided not to cause i dont want a boyfriend. me and tom went back to being good after me crying and whatnot. i realised i kind of liked rhysiepoo and then found out he liked me. which kind of sucks cause i didnt want anything from it. so i just left it. then me and brad had been talking and we both discovered that we both still like each other but we both know that we shouldnt date. but we still like each other. and at the staff party we hung out but it wasnt the way it normally is it was back to the way it was before we started dating or even liking each other; we were best friends again. but then we kissed but that was all cause there was no place private. and weve been talking almost every night since and are hopefully meeting up next wednesday. but i still dont know what i want. and then on tuesday night we had tamikas party and rhysiepoo was smashed and he was cuddling me and stuff but nothing happened. and its been normal since then. and im really hoping to see tom this weekend cause its been a couple of weeks since last time. and hes always good at helping me to forget about other boys.
ohh and ive redid my corkboard :)
and grace is a slut. like a real no joke slut. and now shes not going to school and wants to move schools cause people are paying her out for being a slut. shes really got to learn to take the consequences of her actions. its gross the stuff shes done.
im getting new wardrobe doors next week. almost got all my stuff to cover the mirrors with :)
sister sarah sold her house! and has brought/found a house to rent in buderim!! yay!! theyre moving in this weekend :)
i had a chill session at my house the other week when mum was away :) it was quite nice :)
david hit on me. that was gross and just plain wrong. jake hit on me then hit on sarah jean through me. that was just funny.
im feeling a lot more comfortable around ron ron now. not that i was uncomfortable around him before. its just even better now :) and same with pauleh and alex :)
i have also mastered the art of falling asleep sitting up. no longer do i have to feel bad for falling asleep in class because no teacher will ever know! it does have a down side though, if i read sitting up in bed i will wake up with my book shut on my lap.
toms been giving me lots of drunk calls lately. its mega entertaining :) he called me a couple of weeks ago telling me that he was the "pussy lion" and "i am tom, destroyer of pussys" :) then he managed to get lost... in his room. ohh hes great :)

im pretty sure ive covered everything. well no obviously not everything but everything thats moderately important. no doubt ill think of more and do another post soon :)
love xx

Tuesday, October 6, 2009


since me and tom christened my bed ive been imagining a boy sleeping next to me. not so much tom just any boy. like them having a permanent spot on my bed. sleeping not fucking. awfully like a relationship. oh dear im having an imaginary relationship with a faceless, nameless boy.
ive got to have sex more often.

today i had my last first day of school term ever. wow it feels good to say that.
nothing unusual. we dont have our report cards yet but oh well. VHA 2 in film :) its the only time ive liked the ladder system and thats only because i didnt realise that i was only three below hannah and two below britta. wow.
im a bit worried about the english assessment for this term. its an oral or written (we choose) on our own personal philosophy. like i could do that in 8 minutes or 1000 words. shit. we did some questionaire things to get to our "deeper self" and what not and without sounding dramatic i probably should have councelling. i have a real hatred for my family. i dont know if i like this topic cause i try to avoid thinking about all of that stuff but thats all this topic is about. what made me me. oh well i guess ill just have to find the positives.

i had probably one of the biggest highlights of my life today. ron ron posted this on facebook: Before, I was sitting at my computer desk when mum walked in to talk to me. After talking to her for a bit, she looked a bit awkward. She left the room quickly. I looked down at my boxer shorts a few minutes later; half my ball sack was hanging out. FML.
the best part is that he didnt get it off the website he posted it on the website.
i love my boys.

well thats all xx

Monday, October 5, 2009

i cant believe

that i have to go back to school tomorrow. i guess in a way its good cause the sooner i go back the sooner i leave forever. but thats also a bad thing. im going to miss it so much. ive vowed that im going to make the most of this term.

anyhoos i havent really done all that much with my holidays. i went to the beach at least 4/5s of them so now im like super tanned :) and i went to buderim rainforrest with aimee one day which was cool. and monica was up which was okay. i used to be so intimidated by her so im glad that i wasnt as much this time. i did miss my car chill seshes with sarah though. and me and nutter were meant to hang out but she made other plans. we're kind of fighting. i just dont want to be her friend anymore. im sick of being dragged into all her messes and always coming out of them empty handed. i hate the way she treats people. i just cant deal with all her drama anymore. one of the days i went to the beach we went with pauleh and alex :) it was so much fun! they are great :) and me and other sarah were so good we packed lunch most days so that we didnt spend all our money on food. they were good too :) me and josh were going to hang out but then we didnt. i cancelled cause i dont want to lead him on.

on friday night it was tashes friends 18th party at her house. it was actually way better than i expected :) naomi and britta were there and so was kezia! it was lots of fun and i got very drunk :) me and josh kissed but i explained to him that i didnt want anything so yepp.
saturday at work was bad. jim came in and nic said that they had to have a talk about what happens when she goes on maternity leave. she said they would only be gone about half an hour but they were gone for almost two hours. when she came back she was sad and cried heaps but we couldnt even ask her what was wrong cause we didnt want to upset her and cause it was obviously private otherwise jim would have just told all of us. sarian reckons that our shops getting franchised which would mean that nic wont have a job with us when she gets back. this is even though she signed a contract saying that her job would be there for her when she gets back. i asked nic about it and she said that she couldnt say but she said that she felt shafted and that the company doesnt give a shit that she has worked there for eight years and stuff. she pretty much confirmed what we were thinking but im still hopeful. she started crying so me and katie started crying. it was just horrible. nic doesnt diserve that. then sarah took me home and on the way the boys called and told me they were coming to my house to drink :) i pretty much got out of the shower and they were there. i cried for a bit in the shower about nic and everything and got a nosebleed from it! anyways yepp ron ron, riess, tom and adam turned up. i went and told my neighbours that i was having a few people around they were really nice about it :) i was in a pretty bad mood cause of nic and everything so i wasnt drinking cause yeah nothing good comes from that. the boys were fun though :) and then sister sarah turned up :) then other sarah turned up :) it was fun chilling in my sunroom with them :) then mitch and rhys came :) ron ron played the keyboard for us :) hes so good. and we made many jokes about him and his lack of job :) and the boys made jokes about me crying but they were funny :) and we ordered pizza but we didnt invite the guy back this time we knew better :) i was feeling better by that point so i drank a bit. other sarah is always the first one drunk out of us girls but cause i was still in a bit of a mood i was getting a little frustrated by it. then i got drunker and it was okay :) then sister sarah was sad and she went to the bathroom and didnt come out for ages so me and other sarah went to talk to her. she was crying :( she wouldnt even tell us what was wrong she just kept on telling us to leave her alone and that she wanted space. so i suggested that she chill in my room so i went to kick the boys out of my room and i found this:

they had put on at least half of my wardrobe :) i love those boys. stupidly i got distracted and jamie came over to ask me why sister sarah was walking by herself down my street. i ran after her with ron ron and id like to say i almost beat him. she told him to fuck off and we walked and then she just started crying. it was so bad cause i didnt even know what was wrong to make it better. then other sarah came and after lots of convincing we managed to get her to come back to my house and i left her in mums room cause she wasnt going to get interrupted there. there was nothing me or other sarah could do to make it better she just wanted space so thats what we gave her. a little while later she went into my room and i came in to see if she was alright. she started talking about how her mum and neil are having trouble at the moment and how shes scared shes never going to find someone to be with forever and how she doesnt believe in marriage and about her mum and tjs split and it was just awful to see her that upset. her story about the night they left tjs made me cry. i think i made her feel a bit better though cause she came out after that :) then tom asked me to come and talk with him for a bit so we went into my room and he kissed me :) i like it so much better when he starts it :) then we chilled some more and people from jacquis party came to visit like rae, cole, nick and dean :) nick was dancing! it was amazing! then we all calmed down and put a movie on. then brad text me. that was weird. i had text him the night before because i was drunk and wanted to talk to him but he didnt text back. so we started talking and it turns out that his friends have been stopping him from talking to me :( but he said that he didnt care if they got angry :) even though it was probaby cause he was drunk it still made me feel better. me and tom were sitting on the couch cuddling and whatnot then once most people were asleep we went to my room :) wowwwwww. its better if you havent had it for a while ive decided :) seven again :) haha we broke the first condom and the second condom :S i even made tom make noises this time :) it was a bit embarrassing i was really wet and there were like squelching noises :/ but it was still amazing :) that boy can go for so long! when we were cuddling afterwards i asked him how many girls he had had sex with. id been wanting to know for ages but at the same time i was worried that the answer was going to be so big that i felt uncomfortable. so i asked and you'll never guess what he said. "two including you" the only other time hes had sex was with tash when she took his virginity. i didnt believe him to start with! i cant believe hes that good when hes only had sex with two people! i was going to use his number to gauge how long it would take me to be as good as him! ive had more sex than him! i dont understand! it makes me feel pretty good though cause he has always said that he had a shit first time which means i must be the best sex hes ever had :)
this morning i got up and cleaned up a bit before work. work was okay i had to tell jenny and sash about the meeting and i hated being the bearer of bad news. then i came home and cleaned up some more. parra lost :(
i cant be bothered to write anymore.
night xx