dickhead moment

so while im all for brad being aloud to be angry at me for dumping him, im still aloud to be hurt by it, right?
im severely sick of him slagging me over mysapce. and the worst part is i think he wants me to see it, wants me to hurt. ive never intentionally hurt him.
"i think im going to stay away from myspace for a bit" says bec as she refreshes her home page :)

now onto todays happenings.
qcs first, which i enjoyed for the first time ever :0
it was due to mrs mccallister. half way through a sentence she stops and says "awwww look at the two grade eight-ers awkwardly cuddling" the whole class proceeded to look out the window at a junior guy and girl who were standing together, with the guys arm around her shoulders (awkwardly obviously) people got out of their seats so they could stand at the windows to stare at them. ROFL. then later, after we finished a question, we still had like 20 minutes left of the lesson and mrs mccallister goes "how about we try to spot some more romances?" love it :D
the rest of the day pretty much passed without event.
except for lunch :) i love trentan and the rest of the boys i sit with.
it stated off with a banana skin in a zip lock bag being kicked, much like a football, by trentan. he kicked it until it burst, then was pretending to lick the inside of the bag just as mrs benfeild walked around the corner. love it. probably a "had to be there moment" though.
and later we were throwing and kicking pieces of brownie around so trentan picks a piece up from the ground and starts to try to catch it in his mouth. he obviously wasnt trying hard cause nobody would want that in their mouth and then... it goes in his mouth. it was halarious. probably another had to be there moment. otherwise it would make us all sound like ferrals. we arent quite that bad.
and we got school photos today. mine wasnt that bad. better than what i was expecting. but maybe thats cause they're the size of a postage stamp :) gosh there are some bad ones. like not just bad but B.A.D. like rachelles. and toms. and keahs. but both of the silly sarahs are good. and nutters. the quality of the photos is really bad though. like cassies braces look like they are on top of her lips, thats how bad it is. and if you're tanned you look flushed and shiny but if you're pale then you look as white as a sheet. or a sheep if you prefer :P
and nutter talked to me about the me possibly liking tom thing. she said that she wasnt jealous but she would feel weird if we dated. and like if she saw me and tom together she wouldnt stop and talk. and it would be even worse if her and jake saw us. so she said no without saying no. it really frustrates me. she has no right to say that i cant. she has no right to chose whether im happy. sarah gave me a different view on it though. she said that maybe sometimes her and jakes relationship isnt completely amazing, so she misses tom. so if i dated tom and was happy then she might see it as me having the happiness she could have had. while all that makes sense and i would never want to make nutter feel like that theres still that little bitchy part of me that says "oh well her fault"
i know, i know. who is stupid enough to be a bitch to her best friend. but again "oh well"

im kind of worried about work. i read a comment from brad to jess that was in reply to the "whats going to happen with work?" comment and apparently nic and jim are unhappy with me for some reason. the only thing ive come up with is that i talk to much. but its not like im talking anymore than usual. so im semi stumped. and it frustrates me that neither nic or jim has said anything to me about it. nics slightly forgiven since i havent worked with her in a while but i saw jim on sunday and not a word came from him. even if i saw nic i dont think she would have said anything. its pretty rude of her to be talking behind my back though.
so yes im going to work extra hard at work on sunday.
even though nic wont be in she'll see that stuffs been done.

i think im slowly getting better.
not all of my blog is about brad anymore.
there might be hope for me yet.
xx