Ohh what's that you're back at school?

So I was working the other day and when I turned to greet someone I got the biggets shock. They were wearing a school uniform. I guess it hadn't really hit me that I didn't go to school anymore until that moment and... I couldn't be happier! Ever since I graduated I've been missing school something chronic but when I saw people in my old uniform I couldn't have been more stoaked! I know that I'll still miss parts but really I'm so much happier and so much better off now that I'm out of school.
Life is good.

Not fashionable, just more fashion

So I know the time for making New Years resolutions has well and truely passed but I have one I would like to add.
The thing is I'm not quite sure how to phrase it. I want people to like what I wear is as close as I can get to describing it, I think. I want people to compliment me, I want guys to notice what I'm wearing (because I look nice, not because my boobs or ass is hanging out), I want to feel pretty. I want to take more notice of what I wear, like other people do. I want to give myself a little bit more money to spend on clothes so that I can have nice things. That's it, I want nice things. I want to feel nice in what I'm wearing.
So before I go to uni I'm going shopping :)

Oh yeah and happy Australia Day too :) I did the typical Aussie thing, beach and Triple J Hottest 100 :)

fire tree

So tonight Jenny's daughter and her bf were playing at the Key bar. Man they are so good! Like I saw them play at our last staff party but they were on fire tonight (haha get it cause theirs the fire tree and yeah...)  It was really good to see Brad too, I've pretty much decided that he's one of my brothers. He's great :) He really likes Jess though, it was breaking my heart to see him around her tonight. I loved that the Sarahs came and it was fine :) We saw Rhody and Jesse there cause Jesse's cousin was playing and it was really awkward :( I don't like this! I don't get why it's awkward with our group! Why they seem really stand offish. I DON'T LIKE IT!
Anyways check out The Fire Tree. Do it.

rageragerage

fucking hell fucking shit fucking fuck.
fuck fuck fuck.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
ragerageragerageragerage!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!! SHIT!! FUCKING SHIT FUCK!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH!!
BALLS!! FUCKING SHITTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!
RAGEEEEEEEE!

OMG I can't believe I haven't blogged about this!!

I GOT INTO UNI!! FOR FULL SERIOUS I GOT INTO UNI!
I GOT INTO UNI!!!!!!

I got into my first preference too!!
ARGHH I'm so stoaked!!
I stayed at Sarah Jeans the night before so that she could be with me when I got my offer in case things didn't go well. The morning comes and I go to login and... I don't have my friggen QTAC number! ARGH! So we rush to my house. I swear that my computer was being extra super dooper slow that day but eventually the website comes up. Sarah Jean was doing her makeup in my bathroom and told me to get her as soon as it comes up. It came up and... there it was! My uni offer! The one I wanted! I tried to call out "Sarah" but it sort of came out as "Saaarah...?" She came out and I couldn't even talk, I just looked her her with complete shock on my face. Then she looked at it and we both SCREAMED. Man did we scream. And hug. Ahhhh best moment this year.
We also went to see The Princess and The Frog that day. Gooooood movie :)
The next day me and Sarah Jean went down to Brisbane to see her new place and our new unis. Man I'm so jealous of where she is living with Marcus. They live no joke across the road from Carindale shopping centre. As in you walk out her door and you can see the car park. And Marcus, when he's being Good Marcus, is great. Carindale is just wow. So friggen big. No Zarraffas though :( We couldn't go into my house cause Christine works days but we did get to see the outside. It's not bad, not nice, but not bad. Good for the price I'm paying. Then we went driving to my campus. Do you remember how I said that I was going to bike to uni? Yeah that plans failed. When we were driving there we started going up one hill and I was like "It's okay, it's okay, I can handle one hill" Then we get to the top of that hill and see and even bigger hill. So we start laughing. Then we get up to the top of that hill and we see... and even bigger hill, again. FML. So yeah given up on that idea, going to take the bus. My uni, mannnnnn. Ohh it's so homey! It's like nestled in a forrest completely cut off from civilisation and it's not flashy or too modern which is just my style :) I got my ID... ugh but oh well that's the way they are meant to be, right? Then we went to Sarah Jeans campus. Hers' is bigger and flashier and newer. It's also great :) The drive from home to Brisbane wasn't actually that bad, it only took an hour and a half :) The drive home was shit, peak hour traffic :(
Maddie had her 18th brunch the other day. Twas also fun.
I really haven't got that much to say otherwise.
Arghhh Mum is raging again. She's making me clean up the bench before I leave tomorrow. We both know (or well I hope she knows) that that means they'll be transferred from the bench to my floor.
Mmmmhmmm.

I suck

So today I broke up with Brae. It was so hard. Like so hard. Waiting for him to get to the beach was like the longest hour of my life. Running over what I was going to say over and over again, freaking out, my stomach churning. When he got there I couldn't breathe properly. Thank God I had Sarah Jean there. She led the other boys away so that me and Brae could talk. I froze so badly, my speach went out the window. In fact, it broke the fucking window frame. I barely got out the point I was making; that I thought we should just be friends. I barely mentioned any of my reasons. Then we went back to everyone, he didn't talk to me and he left without saying goodbye. Then he text Sarah Jean asking why I did it then he text me saying "Did something happen last night/today?" I took that as him asking if I had cheated on him but that wasn't what he meant, he just couldn't wrap his head around it. I properly explained to him that my feelings had changed and he asked "I can't change that, can I?" My heart broke just then. This was by far one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Me and Brae are talking now and it's okay, fairly awkward. He asked me if it was his fault and when I told him it had nothing to do with him things got better. I feel so bad though, his Mums taken the entire week off work so she can "keep an eye on him" Not only do I feel bad for making his Mum do that, not only do I feel worse, but Brae has to spend the week with his Mum. But at least we are talking!

And CJ was really nice today, he tried to cheer me up cause I was upset.
Anyways I'm gonna sleep. xx

Guess who...

has a place to live in Brisbane!! I DO!!
I'm living where Jamie used to live (I don't know if I mentioned this but Jamie has moved back home, is going to Uni here and is studying something different!). I'm so stoaked cause while moving in with a stranger wasn't going to stop me from moving to Brisbane, I feel so much safer living with somebody that is recommended. Christine is part of the womens group that Nellie goes to, and Jamie liked living with her, so that's pretty much all I need to know! Rents $140 a week, including electricity and fully furnished. Agreed the bus routes suck, like hardcore suck but oh well this is just my chance to get healthy! Haha yeah right. But there really isn't any other choice.
I could....
- walk 1 kilometer to the bus stop, catch bus number 1, walk 50 meters to the next bus stop, catch bus number 2 and then walk another 1 kilometer to the uni; approximately an hour all up.
- walk 4 kilometers to uni; approximately an hour.
- ride a bike 4 kilometers to uni; approximately half an hour.
So obviously the bus is a whole lot more effort for little gain. Except! What if it rains? That would be aweful! And I would have to carry my epic Uni textbooks. Mum said she would buy me a bike with a basket on it, which could work... except in the rain!
What I think I'm going to do is ride my bike with my Uni textbooks in the basket except on the days when it's raining , when I will catch the bus. Depending on Sarah Jean I may be able to pay for lifts cause it would only be a slight detour to go via my house and my campus to get to her Uni from her house. And I would pay her of course.
But I have a place to live! And Christine seems really nice :)
Once (not if) I get accepted I'm going to go look at my place, then move in :)
Win win win.
xx