appology

sorry if the post before was too graphic.
god i hope tom never finds this blog.

i cant tell if having sex with tom has made me like him more or less.
i cant tell if i wanted tom or i wanted sex.
i cant tell if i want to make love to him or have sex with him.
i cant tell if i want a next time or not.

ive got to figure it out before this weekend cause its steffs 18th birthday on friday night and corbos 18th on saturday night, both of which tom is going to.

i know that i probably shouldnt have sex with tom again.
i know that the more times i have sex with tom the more shit im going to get from the boys.
i know that if i have sex with tom my respect and whatnot is going to go down.
but its just so inviting.

well at least ive got all week to figure it out.
ill have a chat to my ladies tomorrow and see where they stand.
then ill have a chat to my conscience and see what she says.
i would have a conversation with my alter-ego but shes way to confused at the moment to be any help.

ill keep you updated.
xx